There is a thing I’ve been struggling with for as long as I can remember…
Priorities, hobbies, and time management
I have an interest in so many things, from coding, music production, game development, sewing, etc… I’ve been always struggling to find time to do all of my hobbies, and having this idea in the back of my head that I’ll never get really good at any of those just cause I can’t put all of my focus into one. I kinda felt fine. With the idea that I’ll be mediocre at all of these.
It’s been over 7 years since I started fiddling with music production. Last year for the first time I finally felt pretty good with my skills. What I mean by that is that I always hated everything that I was making, I had very high standards where I wanted to be and I knew damn well where I was. I got to the point where I can appreciate stuff that I’m currently making! It does feel good, but I realized how much I put coding to a side.
My biggest interest since I was a little kid was game development. To this, I think that I really want to continue with that idea. I want to make great games, fun games… Recently I picked up Godot, and It’s been a pretty hard change coming from unity. I had so many ideas, but no matter what I thought of it always came down to being ’too big’ to execute, or rather I couldn’t execute those.
Game development is hard
It’s time to go back to my roots. I realized that I completely forgot about doing anything towards my game development journey and I need to start from the beginning. I started making not even games but rather some experiments with character movements and such. It really feels down putting how from small games I had to go back to the easiest and most bare-bone concepts just to get back on my feet again.
I have to say that seeing my improvement with music production I’m sure I can get to the point where I want to be with my game development skills. Even if it’s going to take me another 7 years to be happy with the small games I do, I think I really want to do it. I’ll try to keep myself accountable and actually push myself to come back to something I see my future with.